I remember that last weekend. The end of what had felt like lost years of my life to study had arrived.The blur of the last 3 years slowly receding with the potential of free time and the fun to be experienced. The infamous words of Mel Gibson in braveheart reverberating in my head FREEDOM!
We were advised, ok i take that back. We were told to do one of those final learning statements that require you to talk to the whole group about what you felt you had accomplished over those years. To be honest i was just soooo relieved to have actually survived my postgrad fairly unscathed, well apart from my brain being fried and losing the will to live on numerous occasions, with lots of tears and tantrums... that was just us students, Never mind the clients. In fact my very first weekend was my first lesson in my goal towards self actualization, (shhh let me dream )with the information overload i nearly caved into my beliefs of not being good enough to achieve what would be required and had to contain the need to cry, jump out my seat and run for the hills.( refer to previous braveheart but without the freedom). But hey i survived and my sense of humour remained unscathed. I have since gone on to learn so many other things that have added to my therapeutic toolbox and i am not just a CBT therapist. This is the poem i wrote for that final learning statement and how i had felt about that particular journey.I hope you enjoy. And if you're out there learning something for the first time. Dont give up :).. Every expert in every field of knowledge had their own beginning.
Well here we are, we’re at that point, the end just hours away,
There’s parts of me can’t wait to go, and parts that want to stay
Two years of joy, of laughs and fun, two years of tears and hell
The thoughts id maybe lost my mind, at times was hard to tell
I’ve learned some real important words that I mostly can’t pronounce
Created by some clever folk who are really quite renowned
Padesky, Greenberger, Judy Beck playing tag inside my head!
Oh go away, I’ve had enough I want to go to bed!
Functional analysis, relapse prevention plan
Formulations core beliefs…. Confused.com I am!
A quick 5 factor in my head helped get those feelings clear
no more essays no more skills, no more RESEARCH to fear!
SFBT pure CBT…. throw some Schema modes in there
All things I’ve learned along the way, all things I can now share
The tools, the theory, all time well spent in learning more of me
Those doorways to my future… Well I’ve found a few more keys
So here we are, we’ve all survived to live another day,
So where we all go on from here… Well that’s not for me to say
You see... I’ve learned, to sit upon that fence, opinions kept on hold
Letting others tell their stories, quietly hearing them unfold
I’ve learned to softly hold that space where others need to be
To gently be that anchor when they feel they're lost at sea
Tantrums and tiaras, we’ve reached that point… it’s time to say goodbye
the books away, the laptop closed, deep breath and …great BIG sigh
the roller coaster's slowing down, its journey coming to an end
I wonder what in store for us what’s just around that bend
I really hoped to name you all, and smartly putting it to rhyme,
But truthfully, I could not be arsed and didn’t have the time
Tutor’s coaches, and all involved you have, eternally my praise
For not just skills and knowledge but for all your little ways
My gratitude it knows no bounds for all that you’ve achieved
Unscathed (I hope) you’ve led us here; you must be so relieved.
My fellow students, reprobates, who now I all call friends
I wish you love, and joy in life, where learning never ends
So it’s time now that I close this book and give my head a rest
And leave you with these heartfelt words” you're simply all the best”